EssenceThis personality is like a woman who feels broken by the loss of her husband, through disease, death, war or just being left by him. She live in poverty and is just working hard for her children, whom she loves very much. She is doing basic jobs, several jobs, like cleaning or having no jobs. She is going on, but not seeing a solution. It is like an endless road of working to survive, to help her children to survive; she wants to give them food and warmth; she is trying to get hold on anything, for help and support.
MindFragility.
Broken by life.
But full of spirit.
Desire for support.
Exhausted, worn out, < inner attitude of helplessness.
Very unsure, but that is not dangerous.
Weird.
Gypsy woman skirts.
Breathing deeply, as in sleep.
Broken hearts.
Memories of relationships and loves, kept as trophies.
Lonely hearts.
Never ending story of longing for love, contact and warmth.
Men sitting alone in a corner of a pub, smoking and drinking beer.
Unable to make a right contact.
Not knowing what to do.
Shut down, as from a deep grief, feeling no joy.
Completely shut, not feeling anything.
Very deep grief.
Fear is arising.
You decide for love, not for evil or crime.
People trying to dispose of garbage, forbidden garbage; everything incognito.
If I had to say the truth, I’d have to lie.
Automatic behaviour.
Dementia with paranoid thoughts or hallucinations; Lewy body dementia.
No idea what others are talking about.
A life within brackets.
BodyGeneral: heavy and stiff; a mess, from the bottom of the spine; constant spinning, right and centre, relentless, > turn on in my centre constantly.
Head: pressure.
Eyes: difficult to open, as if eyelids glued together.
Throat: voice hoarse, monotonous.
Heart: beating.
Female: tabbing pain in right ovary.
Limbs: sole of right foot feels numb and swollen; arms stiff while walking; shuffling gait; right fourth finger is stiff; heavy on my shoulders; pressure in arms.