Author: Jan Scholten
Talkative, enchanting, with stories about art, the destruction of the world, like a guru.
Assume airs about art, to disguise it is nothing, to blow it up for sale.
Delusion that one can find meaning by making things bizarre, by behaving madly.
Searching for the lost meaning of life.
Partying, feasting, exuberance; dancing on the table, as if the day before annihilation.
Dry, flat, lifeless, senseless.
Desire nature but cannot find the meaning there either.
Lost love, unable to respond to love that comes, thinking it cannot be full, worthy, real or perfect.
Empty, lost love, lost sense, lost spirit.
Head: headache, pressing, sore, left side, < pressure.
Nose: smell sweet and disgusting.
Mouth: taste bitter, contracting, heart bitter, sickly, nauseating.
Stomach: indigestion, obesity.
Abdomen: bloated, rumbling; offensive flatus; diabetes 2.