Culture: song Come undone, by Duran Duran; Song I am a rock, Simon and Garfunkel.
EssenceThis personality feels being rejected and laughed at as a child, not allowed to be himself and express his emotions. He was thin and pale, silent and shy, with low self-confidence due to aggression, abuse and ridicule in the family. There are several solutions to this state of being.
The first solution is to retire. One can do that emotionally by becoming distant and closed, cutting oneself off from people. But being deprived of the collective memory, he
becomes painless and tearless, leading to utter insignificance. Or one can do that by retiring in a remote, uninhabited place like a desert.
Another solution to stay young, naive and playful, denying every responsibility as if staying a child. One does not want to grow up and have obligations. One just want to make fun of everything, like a jester, clown or fool.
Another solution is to become tyrannical, commanding and chasing employees around.
A therapist, chiropractor, working with horses; he is big and strong, and overweight; he is manipulating the horses, which gives great amelioration.
MindSeen as a fool, clown; being ridiculed, laughed at, seen as backward.
Feeling alone, isolated, alienation from the family; uncomfortable.
Lack of friends, feeling a stranger in one's tribe and clan.
Lack of partners, relationships from being ugly, shouting and angry.
Working alone, trying to save people, llike a lonely warrior.
Carrying a flag, the torch of honesty, righteousness and truth.
Desire to retire, live in nature, far away from humans, as a hermit in a cave.
Aversion to live in the loud, noisy, human world.
It is better to care one's own business, and be brave enough.
I'm sitting in my chair of leather looking around and dying quietly.
For emergencies to survive.
Laughing and playing, teasing.
Desire for clearing the space, massive clearance and cleansing.
Chaos; making something beautiful out of chaos.
We're all a bit gaga.
Fear: humans.
Dream: nightmares of devils, ghosts, and spiders.
GeneralDesire: much food; alcohol; marihuana; hallucinogenic drugs.
BodyMouth: taste is fresh, sour.
Lungs: choking from laughing.
Heart: hypertension.
Nervous: apoplexy.
Urinary: kidney disease, < grief.
Back: thoracic spine problems, vertebra 9.
Limbs: Bursting pain in my leg; oedema from insect stings and unexpressed emotions.