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Nymphaea alba
Year 2026, Issue 3, Article 1CaseAuthor: Tomáš Výboch
Woman, 42 years old
She presents with a long-standing feeling: “I am afraid to live on this planet.” It is not ordinary loneliness but a deep, existential sense of alienation and inability to adapt. She feels completely alone and forms dependent relationships to feel safe—first with her mother, later her ex-husband. When these bonds break, she feels lost.
She has undergone extensive self-work (seminars, regressions), identifying childhood as the main factor, yet panic attacks persist. During attacks she fears leaving the house, avoids people, and experiences chest tightness, breathlessness, and digestive issues. Although she likes people, they feel foreign—“like zombies.” She longs for warmth, love, and acceptance, but when she doesn’t perceive it, fear arises. She feels she belongs nowhere, is alone, and blames herself—even questioning herself as a mother.
She describes high sensitivity and deep perception of others, seeing pretence and manipulation, which leads to mistrust and withdrawal. She no longer wants to “rescue” others or perform socially.
Childhood
She grew up under extreme pressure and fear. Her parents demanded perfection; failure meant punishment. She witnessed severe violence toward her sister and lived in fear, becoming the “good girl,” suppressing emotions and constantly achieving to earn love. Her father was cruel; her mother passive. She later learned she was conceived through rape and feels deeply unwanted.
Adulthood and relationships
In marriage she functioned like a “robot,” suppressing her own needs and living entirely for her husband, who eventually left her with debts. This triggered a crisis but also the start of self-development. Currently she experiences apathy and emptiness.
She feels best in water: “Water feels good to me… it caresses me… I merge into it.” There she experiences acceptance, warmth, and freedom without judgment. She loves plants, especially large flowers and trees.
Quality of life initially around 20%.AnalysisCarbon series:
She always attach herself to some person to feel safe.
Panic attacks.
When panic comes, she is afraid to leave a house.
She says human warmth and embrace would help her.
She blames herself for everything.
She was a “good girl.
Hydrogen series:
She is afraid to live on this planet
She says her fear is not humankind.
She says she does not understand where she is.
She says that when she is in the water, she feels as if she becomes a water.
Stage 12.
She says she was told by parents, she needs to be the best at school, but it was hard for her.
She says: I had to defeat everyone.
621.11.12 – Nymphae alba 1M.Follow-upShe had a terrible aggravation for one month, than great shift occurred—she traveled without fear, felt confident, calm, and free of anxiety. After two months, she reports a profound transformation: feeling she belongs, enjoying life, openness to people, creativity, and absence of existential fear. She describes life as “wonderful and juicy.”
She feels “reborn,” with quality of life improving to 70–80%.
She presents with a long-standing feeling: “I am afraid to live on this planet.” It is not ordinary loneliness but a deep, existential sense of alienation and inability to adapt. She feels completely alone and forms dependent relationships to feel safe—first with her mother, later her ex-husband. When these bonds break, she feels lost.
She has undergone extensive self-work (seminars, regressions), identifying childhood as the main factor, yet panic attacks persist. During attacks she fears leaving the house, avoids people, and experiences chest tightness, breathlessness, and digestive issues. Although she likes people, they feel foreign—“like zombies.” She longs for warmth, love, and acceptance, but when she doesn’t perceive it, fear arises. She feels she belongs nowhere, is alone, and blames herself—even questioning herself as a mother.
She describes high sensitivity and deep perception of others, seeing pretence and manipulation, which leads to mistrust and withdrawal. She no longer wants to “rescue” others or perform socially.
Childhood
She grew up under extreme pressure and fear. Her parents demanded perfection; failure meant punishment. She witnessed severe violence toward her sister and lived in fear, becoming the “good girl,” suppressing emotions and constantly achieving to earn love. Her father was cruel; her mother passive. She later learned she was conceived through rape and feels deeply unwanted.
Adulthood and relationships
In marriage she functioned like a “robot,” suppressing her own needs and living entirely for her husband, who eventually left her with debts. This triggered a crisis but also the start of self-development. Currently she experiences apathy and emptiness.
She feels best in water: “Water feels good to me… it caresses me… I merge into it.” There she experiences acceptance, warmth, and freedom without judgment. She loves plants, especially large flowers and trees.
Quality of life initially around 20%.AnalysisCarbon series:
She always attach herself to some person to feel safe.
Panic attacks.
When panic comes, she is afraid to leave a house.
She says human warmth and embrace would help her.
She blames herself for everything.
She was a “good girl.
Hydrogen series:
She is afraid to live on this planet
She says her fear is not humankind.
She says she does not understand where she is.
She says that when she is in the water, she feels as if she becomes a water.
Stage 12.
She says she was told by parents, she needs to be the best at school, but it was hard for her.
She says: I had to defeat everyone.
621.11.12 – Nymphae alba 1M.Follow-upShe had a terrible aggravation for one month, than great shift occurred—she traveled without fear, felt confident, calm, and free of anxiety. After two months, she reports a profound transformation: feeling she belongs, enjoying life, openness to people, creativity, and absence of existential fear. She describes life as “wonderful and juicy.”
She feels “reborn,” with quality of life improving to 70–80%.