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Hordeum vulgare
Year 2026, Issue 1CaseAuthor: Jan Scholten
Man, 60 years oldJune 2009
Headache ++/++ < light, sun, TV, monitors.
since burnout worse; since PC use since 1990.
annoying, because I do a lot with the head.
e.g. pain temples like 15 minutes reading mail in bed before sleeping (22.00). Headache stays then, it feels like being awake at night.
as if there is a thin horizontal layer (in/over?) on the head.
e.g. pain vertex
Tired.
Gaseous abdomen, cramp. Long ago, recently worse.
Neck stiff when waking up, better after 10 minutes
Feet sore since 2002 (burnout), not gone anymore
Mycosis toes, suddenly recent
Psoriasis from the 7th year
Burnout 2002, then many of the above complaints; then worse. Recently increased again due to intensive year
Last year internal training training agency "P", heavily invested, tough year.
Really wants to do well +++. Makes reports for the head coach.
Recently 5 days a week; for the first time since burnout.Was happy until 7th year. Until he got a beating from P once; then safety was gone.
He felt humiliated and hurt. Treated very unfairly.
Reason: quarrel with F (frequent). M didn't get them apart; P came later, hit him hard on the ear. That surprised pt completely. Because F was always challenging, Pt was only defending himself.
He had always had to defend himself and that went on until the age of 13. That's when he decided: I'll never fight again. Because both sides are annoying: being challenged and hitting back
Pt always fought short but fierce, wanted to win to be left alone. Horrible to fight. Only last five years good with F; since pt his F really hears / sees.Parents whole life a lot of fighting for money (there was not enough).
P died early. PP dead when pt 17 yr
PM and MM then died pt around 17 years old. PM amiable, sweet, MM withdrawn, severe.
No good contact M-MM. Because MM did not agree with P as a partner for M. We did visit them regularly; not vice versa.
MM found P aggressive. But cf pt, aggression also came from M.
P played with us until we were around three years old; after that we had our own will and P couldn't cope with that.
P had to take over the farm from PP. It came suddenly; P had no experience and did not want to. Because of this impotence, aggression.
4 sisters of P wanted inheritance, P took a loan; big debt. M needed money for family, so a lot of fights for money.
No poverty, right; at Christmas, Easter etc. there was everything.
So P was a farmer, and a cattle trader; was strange to him. That's why he was financially weak; also because P had no self-confidence.
Pt has many good memories of the farm. Playing outside, helping, enjoying harvesting.
Indoors he was scared, the safety was broken by P. Plaste since 7th to 21st year in bed. Because P could hit again in no time. P was always unpredictable; was iha. blunt, hard, dismissive. Especially at the table, where you had to be quiet.
F challenged P, P hit F box.Psychic. Closed. Feeling unsafe; because of youth. Carried for a long time.
Now, in relation: does not express itself directly; expresses itself later.
Works hard; quite perfectionist. Masochistic character structure; takes too much on `his neck; helps others.
Rigid: form more important than the essence.
Had turned away from P in youth; towards M. Only in these last years, by training on "P" turned back to P; gives strength.School, MO, Rolduc, boarding school.Study Nijmegen. Part law, part psychology. Been a DJ for five years. After that an audio-visual coordinator at an HBO in Nijmegen. After that in automation; 3 years freelance, after that 9 years independent (trainer).
In 2002 burnout. Then again in automation: computer training for the blind.
"How did everything turn out like this..?" (asks himself). In Nijmegen systemic work. Started in 2004 with "P", training; professional communication. Then asked to become a trainer at "P"; because it can work very well systemically.
R/ Staphysagria MJuly 2009 2nd consultationA little better, a little quieter. Last year got more and more busy program (training for trainer "P"). Last year I was under a lot of pressure; tendency to tackle too much. Wants to do very well. It helps to cycle; and to discuss eea. with his wife.
Internal critic: it has to go well. If it doesn't go well, he can't 'so' discuss it. And that makes it worse (this is 'now' broken through. By training? By homeopathy?)
Year is almost over now, that helps. And he got a few big compliments; and a silent bonus (?) and he is satisfied himself. That makes him feel more at ease.Hard work. By mother. If there were visitors (pt 5-7 Years): 'yes our Wim can do that already'. But pt did not know what M meant; so he shaved in the role "I can do it". Felt shy with the compliments of the visitors.
"How's Wim?": he's doing really well."
Later on at Rolduc: Didn't feel at ease; wanted to talk about it with M. She didn't want to; "just study". That gave pressure, and fear of failure.
He followed many internal trainings in his life. Didn't have any processing time and was therefore behind the matter. That did get better in the end.
Staphysagria: separate sensation: stronger, more resilient inside after just two hours. "What's happening to me..?!"
More resilient myself. But also different to others: "Everything is allowed to be there". Stronger in his coaching. And more management towards men; previously much softer. And can say difficult things more easily. Shows himself more in groups; can speak better.
Patient as helper: used to choose side of mother, when tP was the angry pier, angry, incalculable. Two sisters were looking for support from pt; "Come to me..". Saviour attitude towards women, clients, partner. With female patients: I have to do it right (transference because of M). That combined with the first year in service of "P": tough year.
When he came to "P" he saw "P" as very special. And that's why he came to transference: it has to be good. He did not see the people, especially the boss, as normal people. Even more because the boss had a big heart, but demanded high quality.
DD cob-m/ Chr-m/ Nicc-m. R/ Chr-m 200 plus Staph MAugust 2009 3rd consultationHad an excellent holiday; nice and lazy; well rested.
And sight on physical complaints: stopped gluten, then much better.
Observed that gluten causes many complaints: headache, tired, limp, lower energy, abdominal pain.
Chromium muriaticum: after the second intake he had all kinds of internal angry conversations with women he annoyed. And that dropped after two weeks. He realised that he was doing something with it now; "Apparently something hasn't been said; these are not my duties". After that a quiet alertness, guarded boundaries (completely in contrast to the pain of the previous consultation).
Also with regard to the last piece of work before the holidays. He came to his fear of abandonment in relation to his mother. Conclusion: I may now be abandoned; I am not afraid anymore". After that stronger. Can now also work better with women's groups.
Headache ++/++ < light, sun, TV, monitors.
since burnout worse; since PC use since 1990.
annoying, because I do a lot with the head.
e.g. pain temples like 15 minutes reading mail in bed before sleeping (22.00). Headache stays then, it feels like being awake at night.
as if there is a thin horizontal layer (in/over?) on the head.
e.g. pain vertex
Tired.
Gaseous abdomen, cramp. Long ago, recently worse.
Neck stiff when waking up, better after 10 minutes
Feet sore since 2002 (burnout), not gone anymore
Mycosis toes, suddenly recent
Psoriasis from the 7th year
Burnout 2002, then many of the above complaints; then worse. Recently increased again due to intensive year
Last year internal training training agency "P", heavily invested, tough year.
Really wants to do well +++. Makes reports for the head coach.
Recently 5 days a week; for the first time since burnout.Was happy until 7th year. Until he got a beating from P once; then safety was gone.
He felt humiliated and hurt. Treated very unfairly.
Reason: quarrel with F (frequent). M didn't get them apart; P came later, hit him hard on the ear. That surprised pt completely. Because F was always challenging, Pt was only defending himself.
He had always had to defend himself and that went on until the age of 13. That's when he decided: I'll never fight again. Because both sides are annoying: being challenged and hitting back
Pt always fought short but fierce, wanted to win to be left alone. Horrible to fight. Only last five years good with F; since pt his F really hears / sees.Parents whole life a lot of fighting for money (there was not enough).
P died early. PP dead when pt 17 yr
PM and MM then died pt around 17 years old. PM amiable, sweet, MM withdrawn, severe.
No good contact M-MM. Because MM did not agree with P as a partner for M. We did visit them regularly; not vice versa.
MM found P aggressive. But cf pt, aggression also came from M.
P played with us until we were around three years old; after that we had our own will and P couldn't cope with that.
P had to take over the farm from PP. It came suddenly; P had no experience and did not want to. Because of this impotence, aggression.
4 sisters of P wanted inheritance, P took a loan; big debt. M needed money for family, so a lot of fights for money.
No poverty, right; at Christmas, Easter etc. there was everything.
So P was a farmer, and a cattle trader; was strange to him. That's why he was financially weak; also because P had no self-confidence.
Pt has many good memories of the farm. Playing outside, helping, enjoying harvesting.
Indoors he was scared, the safety was broken by P. Plaste since 7th to 21st year in bed. Because P could hit again in no time. P was always unpredictable; was iha. blunt, hard, dismissive. Especially at the table, where you had to be quiet.
F challenged P, P hit F box.Psychic. Closed. Feeling unsafe; because of youth. Carried for a long time.
Now, in relation: does not express itself directly; expresses itself later.
Works hard; quite perfectionist. Masochistic character structure; takes too much on `his neck; helps others.
Rigid: form more important than the essence.
Had turned away from P in youth; towards M. Only in these last years, by training on "P" turned back to P; gives strength.School, MO, Rolduc, boarding school.Study Nijmegen. Part law, part psychology. Been a DJ for five years. After that an audio-visual coordinator at an HBO in Nijmegen. After that in automation; 3 years freelance, after that 9 years independent (trainer).
In 2002 burnout. Then again in automation: computer training for the blind.
"How did everything turn out like this..?" (asks himself). In Nijmegen systemic work. Started in 2004 with "P", training; professional communication. Then asked to become a trainer at "P"; because it can work very well systemically.
R/ Staphysagria MJuly 2009 2nd consultationA little better, a little quieter. Last year got more and more busy program (training for trainer "P"). Last year I was under a lot of pressure; tendency to tackle too much. Wants to do very well. It helps to cycle; and to discuss eea. with his wife.
Internal critic: it has to go well. If it doesn't go well, he can't 'so' discuss it. And that makes it worse (this is 'now' broken through. By training? By homeopathy?)
Year is almost over now, that helps. And he got a few big compliments; and a silent bonus (?) and he is satisfied himself. That makes him feel more at ease.Hard work. By mother. If there were visitors (pt 5-7 Years): 'yes our Wim can do that already'. But pt did not know what M meant; so he shaved in the role "I can do it". Felt shy with the compliments of the visitors.
"How's Wim?": he's doing really well."
Later on at Rolduc: Didn't feel at ease; wanted to talk about it with M. She didn't want to; "just study". That gave pressure, and fear of failure.
He followed many internal trainings in his life. Didn't have any processing time and was therefore behind the matter. That did get better in the end.
Staphysagria: separate sensation: stronger, more resilient inside after just two hours. "What's happening to me..?!"
More resilient myself. But also different to others: "Everything is allowed to be there". Stronger in his coaching. And more management towards men; previously much softer. And can say difficult things more easily. Shows himself more in groups; can speak better.
Patient as helper: used to choose side of mother, when tP was the angry pier, angry, incalculable. Two sisters were looking for support from pt; "Come to me..". Saviour attitude towards women, clients, partner. With female patients: I have to do it right (transference because of M). That combined with the first year in service of "P": tough year.
When he came to "P" he saw "P" as very special. And that's why he came to transference: it has to be good. He did not see the people, especially the boss, as normal people. Even more because the boss had a big heart, but demanded high quality.
DD cob-m/ Chr-m/ Nicc-m. R/ Chr-m 200 plus Staph MAugust 2009 3rd consultationHad an excellent holiday; nice and lazy; well rested.
And sight on physical complaints: stopped gluten, then much better.
Observed that gluten causes many complaints: headache, tired, limp, lower energy, abdominal pain.
Chromium muriaticum: after the second intake he had all kinds of internal angry conversations with women he annoyed. And that dropped after two weeks. He realised that he was doing something with it now; "Apparently something hasn't been said; these are not my duties". After that a quiet alertness, guarded boundaries (completely in contrast to the pain of the previous consultation).
Also with regard to the last piece of work before the holidays. He came to his fear of abandonment in relation to his mother. Conclusion: I may now be abandoned; I am not afraid anymore". After that stronger. Can now also work better with women's groups.