Author: Jan Scholten
The situation is that of someone who has done bad things, criminal like. In order to survive he has to keep things secret. In the end he suppresses his memories and emotions even more and becomes hard, malicious and ruthless. The situation is tense, one has to be on guard all the time and watch out for attacks. Relations with family members and friends become difficult, hard and in the end impossible.
Desire to strike, do karate, beat, break things; kill, butcher with a machete, wild people, with big strikes.
Alert, seeing everything, suspicious, bodyguard.
Desire to be respected, to be seen with admiration or at least with awe.
Playful, naïve, joking.
Anger, ruthless, malicious, atheist, kill, suicide.
Sexual abuse, incest.
Sensation is tense, explosive, suffocating, not at ease, no attention, conversation or love.
Religious, as an escape from feeling bad.
Secrets, kept whole life, about grave things.
Emotions, strong, violent, suddenly changing or tuning upside down.
Integrating your own hatred, to solve the hatred to others.
Aversion to listen and see things.
Uneasy, restless, fiddling with leg, walking back and forth.
Images: knives, chopping.
Music: Heal the World, Dancing Queen.
Lungs: deep sighing.
Abdomen: pressure, pressure in liver region.
Chest: big, expanded; pumped up.
Stomach: cramp, upset, nausea.
Limbs: sharp stitches, 2nd toe, wound; build up in arms.