Author: Jan Scholten
Double, 2, mixed up.
Themes: disaster, collapse, earthquake.
Awkward, clumsy, uncoordinated, disorientation, balance is poor; drops things.
Lack of harmony and trust in the family.
Uncertainty of self.
Accelerated, early growth and maturity.
Persistent, energetic: marathon runner, mountain climber, trekking.
Unsure of where things are in my own house.
Woke up drained.
Mind running, fast, alert, exhilaration.
Aversion: people, talking, conversation with myself.
Detached, numb, indifferent, a walking zombie.
Husband just happened to be alongside.
Fear: partner being gone, death of partner.
Dreams: many, frightening; amorous.
Dream: insects; black animal, crow in a log, I was surprised and happy, set it free; precious, sleeping bees in a closed container like a margarine tub, died when opening the box.
Dream: water; corrupt police.
Dream: silver, translucent robot from another planet trying to get home.
Dream: death, of friends.
Dream: having 2 affairs.
Dream: being on top of the cathedral mountain, hanging from a bungee cord, trying to get up a ledge, fell into the water and swimming downstream.
Dream: being elected co-chairman of the workers’ association.
Dream: sitting on the toilet, people walking into there were disgusted with me.
Dream: mother's illness, preparing myself mentally and emotionally for losing her.
Dream: partner and I we are so much alike, almost like twins, mixed up, went to each other's job, got fired.
Dream: military, animal attack; lots of shooting.
Colour preference: 15-16C, 20-22C.
Weather: warm flushes; chilly and nervous.
Sweat: neck, face.
Time: < 5 am, < full moon.
Desire: salt; smoked foods; meat; beef; barbecue; potato salad; fruit; grapes; frozen yogurt; cold drinks; salty food like potato chips, sunflower seeds, salty rice; snacks.
Aversion: sweets; chocolate; tobacco, cigarettes smoking.
Food: < coffee, < soda pop.
Vertigo: < coffee, < soda pop.
Head: headache, dull, terrible, splitting, exploding, pressing, sharp, stabbing, burning, temples, vertex, < anger, < motion, >< coffee; flushes of heat, forehead, right side, from occiput to behind left eye; brain felt swollen.
Eyes: brighter; itchy; watery; vision blurred, < reading, colours look more vivid.
Ears: plugged, clogged, as full of water, as pressing in a plane flight.
Nose: sore; runny, post nasal discharge, clear; obstruction worse at night; nosebleed; sneezing; smell acute, burning.
Mouth: aphthae; gums bleeding.
Throat: tight; sore, > drinking, < touch.
Lungs: breathing difficult; cough.
Heart: pulse fast; angina pectoris.
Chest: sharp stabbing, bruised, cutting pain, like a knife thrust, above the right clavicle upon full inspiration.
Stomach: burning; burping; vomiting.
Abdomen: bloated, distension, full, < eating; severe colicky pain; duodenal ulcer.
Rectum: constipation; stool hard lumpy, difficult evacuation.
Urinary: urinates frequently; pain kidney, to hip, > bending, < straightening up.
Female: menses scanty, brown; leucorrhoea, white; cramping pain < menses; vagina feels swollen; swelling of the breast, < menses.
Limbs: dragging, from hip to groin in ovarian region, be pressed out.