Author:
Wendy Hewland
Book:
Journal
Type:
Case
Chapter:
2020.01.04
A remedy from the Niobium compounds
FEMALE AGE 47 3/6/01 FIRST VISIT (FIRST AND ONLY REMEDY)
Reason for visit: been severely depressed, want to get off Prozac and smoking pot, weight gain, (10 pounds) lack of energy, holding myself back, cold for a month, in chest - problem hearing in left ear - closes off, want to stop alcohol and pot (marijuana) usage, when I have pain, it is in neck, jaw, shoulder
I had teeth extracted year ago, immense wax ears worse left, deeper than a Q-tip can reach, lot of breakdowns in family history on both sides, at 5 mom went to work and grandmother had a breakdown, went through a lot of abandonment, I sang from age 2, I was a freak, at 18 I was raped, a guy rescued me, I married him, soon after that, accidents - I fell out of tree, lost consciousness, hit head left side, chiropractic only, #2 neck injury falling, scissored cervical, vertebrae chiropractic, I drop things a lot, cross-eyed from measles, if I focus on something too much I’ll break it, I transpose 3rd and 4th letter/, had meningitis - 3rd grade - hospitalized for that, 2 weeks,
Dreams? A: common dreams about different houses, moving back to old house.
Dream #2 hummingbird drinking from my mouth, I was taking pix with pink camera, that was lovely.
Dream #3 travelling see an actress, lot of struggle, dreams - when I was in 20’s/ 30’s, attack shower.
Dream #4 dream being on a lake - 1800’s (as a child), saw my mom - meditating/ angelic, glass coffin underwater with GM in it, I opened casket and there was a smell.
Dream #5 large eyed kids with no bones, always overwhelming feeling of broken heart, deep sense of regret/ guilt, I’m really sensitive person (cries), I thought the world was pretty cruel, I have an enormous talent, but fear of connecting with world, I panic when I have to get there, don’t feel safe
Q: Fears? - A: making mistakes in anything, where I’ll hurt myself or other people, fear of humiliation, that I’ll never get through my issues, I’ll sabotage myself quite a lot, trying to keep myself safe, when I was 4 years old my crayons fell into the furnace, flames flew up and set house on fire, father yelled, so if I was constantly hyper vigilant, something bad would happen, trying to find something to mean, I’d wait until last minute, if you’re against yourself, what’s the point? I’d use something to get myself off track, I never go out with make-up on, my mother cared about appearances, so I guess I took that on,
Q: How as you relationship with your Dad? A: I recall him growing up as distant, he read Freud and he talked to me about sex while he was in the bath, he was immature, never believed in himself, he was an artist who sabotaged things.
Q: How was your relationship with Mother? A: I loved and hated her, verbal abuse came from her, they were both snide with one another, so tone of voice is very important to m.
Q: How was your relationship with husband? A: We are one month apart, my depth of my despair, it upsets him, he’s protective, it’s intimate, he doesn’t want me to be co-dependent, I always want good feedback, he’ll hold it all inside until it’s done, he says I examine too much, like why do I have to analyze everything? he regrets that I sabotage, spirituality? I am learning to forgive myself, I forgave everyone else except me, I sabotage everything because it will be taken from me, like I don’t deserve it, (I say) let’s talk about singing, love singing, I teach personal relating, how public speaking, I teach voice as well, due to bad teachers I lost my middle section of voice, I found a way to teach voice with people without damage, loss of spontaneity and freedom but I’ve taken it back, I can demonstrate it on command, Prozac feels like I’m on hold, seemed like my life fell away, I was spiralling during the sale of our house, I’d rather lose my libido than go into the black hole of depression, I was taking daily 55 mg of Prozac for last 6 months, off it 2 years before then on it again took 2 a day up until 1992, got bloating in lower abdomen.
Q: How is your libido? A: Sexually, I reach orgasm pretty quick.
Q: Weather you prefer? A: to be outside in cool air, favourite pieces of music - go round in my head, repetitive thoughts about regret, I play 7 instrument.
Q: Menstrual cycle? A: - periods regular, PMS - I get sensitive.
Q: describe what success means to you - A: making a decent living meaning with singing, now - frustrated and the money aspect
(Note because of not enough success with his business and her music career they were forced to sell their house and are now renting)
Analysis Jan Scholten
The artistic side and singing indicates the Silver series. Added are neck and ear problems.
Doubt, hesitation, tortured by ambition runs through her case.
It indicates Stage 5, together with insecure, sabotaging herself.
Prescription: a Niobium compound remedy, 3 pellets once daily at night for 3 weeks, keep on with your M.D.’s Rx of daily Prozac for now
Follow up 4/5/01
On remedy 3 weeks, singing immediately better, I sing better, less blockage, then got lung stuff, I chose to lessen/stop Prozac on my own in 3 weeks, I’m being well received, lot of performances. I feel kind of crabby now, hearing in left ear same, still got stuff in lungs, pain in neck jaw and shoulder, big release back there, last night I was lying on it, I felt amazing change right away with this remedy, Q: dreams? A: I’m always in rooms, houses, back to the old house, once in my dream student now there, did performance.
I’m a well rounded singer, not as afraid, not harassing myself, being kinder to myself, not holding back, less procrastination, no fear of loss, by the way, a psychic I saw said keep seeing Wendy, she’s powerful
5/9/01
Off Prozac now, end March, when I was on it, felt like someone was stabbing me, after oral surgery I cracked my neck, huge lymph swelling - had big huge release, I can swallow, voice changed so much since remedy in strength, very full, middle range breathy!, still have weirdness with ears, no depression but sensitivity, saw 2 my sister has Rhett’s syndrome, brings back sadness, talks about family, want to feel connected (cries), I have a desire to give and make a difference, forgot remedy for 4 days - didn’t feel as good, just past
Prescription: a Niobium compound remedy, 2 pellets am and pm for 5 days, then resume 1x/ day for a month
5/23/01
Relapsed..severely depressed got no singing work, did not take remedy for a while, and did not call you.
Prescription: he Niobium compound remedy, 3x/ day for 5 days. Get he Niobium compound remedy in higher potency.
9/28/01 Didn’t hear from her for a while, she chose to continue with he Niobium compound remedy 3 x day. Prescribed the Niobium compound remedy, - when she took it all depression gone, not smoking pot, no return to Prozac, singing career really shifting, marketing own CD!
April 2003 feels really well.