Author: Vladimu00edr Petroci
A remedy from Hyacinthaceae
Case by Vadimir Petroci
Mrs M is a 32 year old woman who suffers from depression since the birth of her child; she stuffs herself with food up to five times a day and then vomits. She is rather overweight and quite insecure: her voice trembles and she is constantly on the verge of tears. She is blond, and she wears a floral patterned blouse and floral earrings. Outwardly she looks happy, cheerful and content but she asked to be admitted to a psychiatric hospital because she felt she needed help desperately.
Her problem started nine years ago with post partum depression. She was at home while her husband worked. After the birth of her baby she did not feel any love for her child. She was aggressive, mainly when the baby cried, shaking her or throwing her angrily on the bed. The delivery was long and difficult for her, fifteen hard hours. She was fearful before and during the birth; she was so afraid that she simply wished it to be finished at all costs, even if the baby died. She wonders why she is born a woman, and she pities her daughter that she will suffer so much as a woman, too. She is very sensitive to pain; since her menarche at ten years of age she has had horrible menstrual pains, so bad that she wanted to pull out her uterus. "It's normal to be angry after so much pain!" Due to feelings of unfulfilment she began to fill herself with food.
She has been bulimic since childhood. Both her parents were alcoholic and her brother is mentally disabled. Her parents tried to prevent her from eating so much, even though they were obese themselves. It was only at the age of 17 that she found out that she had actually been adopted at the age of five - her 'parents' were not her real parents after all. She quarreled a lot with her mother all her life. Now she tells her that she should be happy because she has a child. She never felt good enough for her mother; her mother controlled her, reproaching her for hours at a time and often beating her. If her mother broke a glass, she would blame the daughter for having disturbed her and she would have to apologise for hours. She would be punished if she came home five minutes late. She tried to do everything according to her mother's wishes, and became anxious when her mother came home. She felt limited and frustrated: "When I try to go my own way I am reproached." She had a deep feeling of guilt, shame and self-reproach, a heaviness like a big rock in her chest that prevents her heart from beating freely. She connects her feeling of guilt to the Catholic church she was forced into. She often looked for ways to escape this situation, and she learned to lie in order to avoid punishment.
She likes the sun; she becomes depressed and anxious in cloudy weather. The opposite of this sensation is euphoria. Water fascinates her, the way it flows freely. She makes a hand gesture: her palms together creating a spherical space with the fingers intertwined, illustrating the feeling of 'pressure' by pressing her hands together. "My parents wanted to limit me because I was cheeky." She looked for a way to escape, which she described as water seeking an outlet. She is like water, mild and gentle but not wanting to be closed in a glass. She could drown someone she doesn’t like. She did not learn to swim until she was 22, but now she loves to swim.
She wants to be acknowledged and appreciated in her job. She tries to maintain the image of being nice, kind and wise in her job; she wants to keep a good impression and to be pretty and attractive. She was brought up to be yielding and servile, satisfying others. She tries to please people but she cannot satisfy everyone so she often feels guilty. People see her extroverted merry face, but inside she is very sad. When she deals with someone who is unpleasant it makes her feel cold. She is afraid to be unloved, to be alone if she would express her real inner self. When she is unloved, she feels like a useless outsider, not needed by anyone. She likes to be in the center of attention, and she asks "Why I am here in this world when I am not loved?"
She can only swear silently. But bulimia is something different. "Others can see that I’m greedy." She has dreams about falling, running endlessly, her teeth falling.
She is warm blooded, loves draft.
She likes sweets.
Psoriasis on her elbows during pregnancy. Allergic rhinitis. Ruptured inflamed appendix, but fortunately incapsulated. Heel spurs.
She is soft, sensitive to pain, yielding, caring, hurt: plant kingdom.
From the Sensation method we know that the theme of expulsion, compression, neglect, limitation, exclusion and being left out belongs to the Liliales. It is confirmed by Jan Scholten's Plant theory, however this was not available at that time in 2007. Her problem started during childhood, so should we choose a remedy from the Magnolianae (620), which has to do with early childhood, or the Lilianae (630), which has to do with adolescence? Her problems are in relation to people: she wants to make a good impression and to be loved. She wanted to go out, but her parents didn’t allow it. She doesn’t have problems with herself, with who she is and how to survive in the harsh world, like people from the Carbon series. Therefore, Lilianae is a better choice (630). Liliales are in the subclass Liliidae (633). The theme of pressure and neglect, known for the Liliales from Rajan Sankaran's Sensation method, reminds us of the close connection between Asparagales (633.5) and Liliales (633.6) in Jan Scholten´s Plant System. Jan originally put the Asparagales in Phase 5 (pressure) and Liliales in Phase 6 (neglect). In June 2018 Jan shifted the Asparagales to Phase 6, where the Liliales are.
At that time however I missed the precise map of the Plant system so I had to use a different method. I looked in Radar 10 for remedies from the Liliales that have a relationship to bulimia. A remedy from Hyacinthaceae, the sea onion, has a prominent relationship to water; it grows close to the sea. It has been used since ancient times as a treatment for oedema, then called dropsy, because of the diuretic properties of the cardiac glycosides. She compared herself with water and she loves to swim.
From the present understanding the code number fits nicely: 633.53.07. Phase 5 represents pressure, limits, going out, carnal pleasure, overdoing, enjoying meals, extroversion, joy and merriness, reminding us of Nitrogen and Phosphorus. Subphase 3 has a pleasing, yielding quality and a guilty feeling. The Phase is more visible from the outside. She shows an open, joyful face to people (Phase 5) with the inner feeling that she needs to please them, otherwise she feels guilty (Phase 3).
To me, the stage is more Stage 6: daring, rebellious and cheeky.
Prescription: a remedy from Hyacinthaceae 5C, 1 globule 3 times daily.
After one and half month she came for follow up. She was taking remedy 25 days. During the first day she had pain in the gallbladder region. After two to three days she felt more peaceful. She lost the desire to eat greedily. Even when she thinks "OK, I’m going to eat a lot now", she eats only 2 pieces of bread and it is enough for her. During the first 2 weeks the mycosis between toes was worse. The fungus started during the first pregnancy 10 years ago. Her feet perspire a lot so she walks barefoot at her job when her colleague is not present.
She had a dream in which she expressed her opinion to her mother. She said that she was ashamed of her mother because she does not care for her hair and teeth. She woke up afraid that she would be rejected as her mother never approved of her opinion, but she also had a feeling of determination and resolution. Now she feels much more confident towards her mother in daily life.
After 5 months she reported that she feels emotionally very well and she lost 20 kg. When she feels an urge to eat too much, she takes the remedy from Hyacinthaceae 5C for several days and her equilibrium returns.